Gotham

she's obviously attractive.

but her depth is so much sexier than the surface.

i genuinely enjoyed getting to know her tonight.

the conversation was so mature and it didn't make me uncomfortable. i felt like i fit in to the moment.

so why am i questioning if i'm good enough now?

i have a mechanism in my head that makes me feel this inadequacy because of my status.

it's strange, i could have everything else going for me, but i'll get self conscious about not being enough because of that reason.

she appears to be above money, which is sexy.

it made me feel like it could be a non-issue.

but in my head, when i try to rationalize it, it feels like it's a non-issue because it's not an issue for somebody in her position.

"having money's not everything, not having it is."

the reason why it bugs me - i think i really like her.

and it would be great if it was just a 'for now' thing.

but if i think about the long haul, which i can't help but do, it scares me to think that i'll let her down somehow because of it.

retarded, i know.

but that's just how my head works.

the silver lining - she motivates me to do more. be more.

i love people that inspire me to better myself.

why can't her presence help me upgrade myself and my surroundings?

maybe it can end up being a non-issue.

"feels like we've been here before, this can't be your first time."