Wednesday, May 15, 2013

This could be something ||

I used to be a romantic.
I believed in love at first sight. I believed in happily ever after. I believed that the right person could fulfill you and that anything less would be unacceptable.

Then I went through some shit and my beliefs evolved.
Things that I was certain about no longer made sense, because I gained insight.
Beliefs that I had, I no longer believed, because they weren't based in fact, but rather unfounded hypothetical's.

I questioned more, and in turn not only learned more about the real world, but about myself.
I'm thankful for the awakening I experienced - rude or pleasant. It was actually both.

I no longer look for someone to complete me, but rather compliment me.
As much as I want someone to enhance my being and my life as a whole - I understand that it's on me to be fulfilled - with myself, with what I do, with how I live, and lead, and love. Another being is just that - another being. They do not, and will not, and should not be a reflection of my needs and fulfillment. 

I used to look at it all wrong. 
I used to let my needs control my thinking leading me to act on emotion rather than rational thought. 
I did not have the ability to even understand this before.
I now understand, and am working on creating a better me.
I'm working on me now, to prepare a better me forever. For as long as ever will be.